I was going to write up a farewell back when I was voted out, but then I learned that I was on Kiwa and possibly still had a chance to come back. I would like to write a message now to be used upon reveal, if possible.
I chose Dang Thu Mai as my character for a very different reason than normal. In other mystery games, I play as a clown, because goofing off is far more fun than taking this game seriously. I enjoy the act of acting as someone I am not. I chose Dang for the opposite reason. I feel more kinship with this woman than perhaps any other character I've encountered. If I had to choose one character that I feel I can truly understand, deep down in my soul, it would be Dang Thu Mai. By playing as Dang, I made the decision to play, in a way, as myself. Not my usual playacting, and not simply playing a game to win the way I do in non-mystery games. I made a decision to enjoy the game through my own eyes, to play the game my way, and not as a (which isn't me) goofball or as the amoral, ends-justify-the-means player that I have been in non-mystery games. I chose to follow my heart in making decisions.
And I enjoyed myself in this game. I didn't play well. I didn't make any friendships or get close to anyone. But in voting Diana out, I made sure to tell her what was happening. I wanted to get rid of Charlie because of her sliminess. I chose to leave with dignity and hope that the other tribe was telling the truth in keeping me on. I feel better about this game than I do about some others where I have gotten much further and been much more ruthless.
I don't want to repeat this experiment. But I am thankful that I have had the chance to play this game in this way, and wouldn't change a thing.